14/10/13 - it's your birthday, I can't believe your not here to celebrate it with us. I wont believe it. I will always believe you will come running through that door and you will grab hold of mam, me and Debbie in your arms and never let go. Right now we would be ripping open your presents all excited because its your birthday. You would have a big beautiful smile on your face , as always. You would then give us all a big cuddle and kiss. Then we would be laughing at you trying on your new t-shirts hoping they fit you and waiting for you to say "I think it's a bit short". This is going to be such a hard day without your funny sense of humour to keep us all laughing, everyday is. On your birthday last year we went to b raj and enjoyed a tasty buffet, where we filled our plates with massive mountains of food! After you eating your whole plate you did your usual and said "am stappit" as you had eating to much food ( no surprise there ) we went home to find ourselves all munching in to some ice-cream! Happy 50th dad, words can't describe how much I miss you, you gave us too much to miss! Love you more than the whole wide world xx p.s: I hope granda is throwing you a good birthday party.